Jan 18 2009
On a serious note
My evening ended differently that I’d anticipated. I’ve really been looking forward to seeing the movie, The Savages. Thought it was going to be a comedy with a slight dose of sad reality about aging parents…Not so much. I’m not saying I didn’t like it, it just was not at all what I had expected.
It made me wonder what my boys lives will be like in the future. Will the fact that I’ve ended my marriage haunt them forever? Will they grow up to be happy, productive members of society? Or will I have caused them some horrible damage by having raised them as a single mother? Will the suffer wilth relationship issues since they don’t see the example of a healthy one at home?
Maybe I’m realizing I’ve made a mistake by making a choice for my children without their consent…maybe I’m second-guessing the choice I made…maybe, I’m sleepy and the medication that is supposed to be treating my sinus infection has caused me to be a babbling idiot.
I choose “C.”
My boys will be fine. They won’t have any more issues than any other child…be they from divorced parents or not. I’ve chosen to raise them in an environment of love rather than the chaos and turmoil that surrounded us for the first year of their lives…the last year their father and I were together. Though we are still married we’ve been apart for almost a year. Ten wonderful, peaceful, serene months!! Childhood, adolescence, and adulthood all come with their own set of troubles. There is no manual for parenthood or even one for life. We just have to pray, and hope, and do the best we can with what we have.
No more Philip Seymour Hoffman movies until my sinus infection is cured!
