singletwinmom

Tonight I went to see “The Reader.” I heard some wonderful reviews of the film and thought it sounded worthwhile. So, tonight I went to see it. I won’t give the plot away, but it was very much the story of a young man’s first experience with love. It was very sweet, and very steamy. But, it made me wonder about the power of the “FIRST LOVE.”

I was left for baby daddy’s first love. So, I have first hand experience with the awesome power of it. It astounds me to think of what people will do for their first love. I can see where it is a powerful feeling…you are young (I would say that’s probably the case more often than not) and you have never really experienced the incredible pain that comes from having your heart broken, so you love with reckless abandon. You love, the first time, with your whole heart, your whole mind, your whole, entire everything. Because you don’t realize that love can and most likely will end at some point. So, no wonder first love is so all-consuming. No wonder it can have such an impact on shaping who you become as a person.

But, then I was left to wonder…have I had my first love? I’ve never been so consumed by a relationship that I couldn’t see my way to the next one. I’ve never pined away for one person so much that I would risk life or limb for them. I had what I thought was my own version of first love, but I can’t say that I would give anything up to have it again. Nor can I say that any other relationship I have ever had was at all altered by my first love. So, did I really have one?

If first love has the power to make you do extraordinary things…have I REALLY had one?

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